i am not easy.
i want to be easier. first meeting laughter and conversation.
i want to be heartfelt hugs with strangers. deliberate handshakes.
i want to be soft and sultry, all ‘babe’ and ‘darling’ and ‘what’s cooking good looking?’
i want to be ‘lets do dinner this evening’, last minute plans and ease.
but i am not easy.
i am slow and delicate. words on a text message checked three times before sending.
i am anxious, replaying conversations. over and over.
and i am faultering.
all: ‘hey…um… are you busy? i..err… was gonna go and do something. but you don’t have to if you don’t want to…’
i am all heaviness and weight. all dragging my being through life.
i want to be easy. i want to float through life. light and air.
love and grace.
i want to be easy."
- i want to be easy. f.gabdon (via thegabdonwrites)
I hate getting a wax but u live the results. The one wax I enjoyed was the first one I got. She was gentle, she didn’t pressure me and I was actually able to relax. She was also black so she understood the coarseness of our hair and coached me through the whole thing. The ones after that, ugh….so glad I had a good first experience so at least I know not all waxes are horrible